Thinking too much in my case involves too many hypothetical situations. And that is the biggest fallacy of the entire thing. Being what I am, the biggest situation where I failed was while analysing myself. I mean, thoughts and people evolve, hence people themselves are variables, even to themselves. So who am I to define myself as something? I am always to think my way to betterness. How could I have been so hard up and inflexible before?
(Thinking on the same lines leads one to conclude that the number of constants in this universe tends to zero, but that discussion is for another day.)
What I realised yesterday was that my theory of order and chaos, wherein one needs to effectively balance order and chaos to live a happy life, was proven wrong.
The theory goes as such – the world is chaotic and to fight back you need to have an ordered setup. By ordered setup I am referring to aims, goals, schedule (or something to do) and everything which involves not succumbing to the situation and allowing the world to spiral out of control. It also involves (theoretically) not having fun when faced with tasks, not allowing external variables to force one to lose productive time, etc. And chaos on other hand is not worrying about what to do and not to do. In short, ‘handling’ what the world throws at you. Chaos doesn’t seem to be bad in writing, but if one lives a chaotic life without knowing the consequences or how to handle the world/situation, the consequences would be depravity and misery. Trust me, have seen it happen and even could say, experienced it.
So coming back, the order chaos balance theory was proven wrong because yesterday I realised that patterns and in a way order exists even in chaos. It is very wonderfully hidden among layers of what one thinks is randomness, but randomness it is not. They are what one must do, in this world to enjoy the fruits of labour. Now, ask yourself, would you enjoy a success without realising and knowing all that you fought to achieve it?
Order, removes everything that you fight or need to fight in chaos. Reaching the success in order is easy (in its own way) but not actually enjoyable. Who knows what all you might lose, supporting order and removing variables? The stuff you may lose can be anything from memories, simple pleasures to new friends, love, people, places and situations you would have overlooked because you were too absorbed in order-ifying your life.
Now comes to mind the delicate matter of insurance against pain. Continuing on the same chain of thought, pain is again a chaotic phenomenon. It is good yet bad but can badly take away time and if not careful, everything else too. But yet, pain, is actually a rite of passage. You have to experience pain to enjoy what you will get. Because when you do get whatever it is, you will know it’s real worth, as you know what you went through when you didn’t have it or didn’t get it. So then, insurance against pain really doesn’t make sense, does it?
So then, chaos wins against order. I am fully into it now. Order be damned, I am fully into chaos now, with nothing but my principles to prop me up, and I fully trust them. They haven’t failed me till now, and will not too, in the future. Besides, careful observation shows you that those fully into order are usually self absorbed snobs who really don’t appreciate anything that becomes theirs. So even balancing order and chaos doesn’t make sense now does it?
Food for thought!
(Obviously for you, dear reader... I already have thought it out)
p.s- Learn from me how to make stuff boring ;) ... but then... transforming tumultuous emotions into simple words in English was never easy. I cant be blamed for not trying!!
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